23
May
10

A Granola Bar, a Little Whine, and Now . . .

It’s not fair!

I want to see Emily Rose dance the Sugar Plum Fairy. I want to see her graduate. I want to see her become a professional ballerina.

I *might* see the first; the last is probably right out, especially if she goes to college first.

Why do I have to have cancer? There’s so many things that I want to do. I want to go back to school for a Masters at least in literature, and maybe history. I want to fill my house with quilts I’ve made as well as give away a whole bunch. I want to knit my own wardrobe. I want to bead beautiful jewelry and have plenty of occasions to wear it. I want to keep learning to play the mandolin. I want to do some voice training, so I can at least hear the ghost of the voice I might have had if I’d had training when I was younger. I want to get back into shape (if not the shape I was in at 17, at least the shape I was in when Brian and I got married). I want to read so many more books. I want to play with the friends I’ve already got, and make new ones to play with. I want to travel. I want to get to know my nieces and nephews on both sides of the family, and get to know *their* kids. I want to continue my job where I left off, taking more responsibility for the event planning, and getting to know more about designing websites. I want to touch people’s lives, and be there for them the way so many people are being there for me in my time of need. I want to play with my cats and dog. I want to love my husband and spend a longer rest-of-my-life with him than it looks as if I’ll get.

And this is how I’m feeling 6 days after getting such excellent news on Monday. Guess it’s a good thing it wasn’t bad news!

OK, now that I’ve gotten that whine out (and had a granola bar), I feel much better. Don’t worry, Ma, I’m doing fine now.

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2 Responses to “A Granola Bar, a Little Whine, and Now . . .”


  1. 1 margaret Stonich
    May 23, 2010 at 9:02 pm

    It is NOT FAIR!!!! DAMN DAMN DAMN the DAMN Cancer. Julie you are full of life. Of course you have so much more to do. I love your list!!! I want to make a quilt and join you in the fun.

    I am choked up and can think of nothing more to say.

  2. May 23, 2010 at 10:30 pm

    Oh MY!!! I want these things so badly I can feel it in my heart, through my chest, and down to my fingertips! I can’t imagine wanting all this and feeling like I am a race against time! Julie, I want you to give me a quilt you made and be in a book club together and work out on our lunch hours. Oh – I want so much for you.
    Love!


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